Last night I was working on final touches for the publisher. Played with the idea of putting a picture of Jason in the book, but due to the cost, I settled for a statement that he will always be with me in my heart or something like that. Some of my friends and family thought I should dedicate the book to Jason, but in all honesty, I'm a little angry with him for leaving us and causing me such pain. I chose instead to dedicate the book to the person who kept me alive during my deep depression - my husband Scott. Without him the book would never have been written and my daughter would have lost not only a brother, but also her mother. But I do need to have the in memory of Jason page because he's forever in my heart and always on my mind. My sweet son. I always had such a strong connection with him, maybe because he was a lot like me. Maybe it's the mother and son thing. I don't know. I just know that I love both my children who are very different from each other - almost polar opposites. So naturally my relationship with each one is different. Shannon is my role model - and I am in awe of her and all she achieves each day. She's everything I wish I could be - beautiful, goal oriented, driven and extremely organized to get more done in a day than I can do in a week. She's my hero.
Got to get showered for work. Maybe I'll post some more later.
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